i do not like the person i am becoming. My sexual frustration has reached a new height. i am now blaming the world when i should be blaming myself.

i need to lose weight

i do not exist

i do not exist

i sat on the swings tonight and day dreamed about my soul mate walking up and sitting next to me. She would be listening to Taking Back Sunday as i was and maybe even wearing a Taking Back Sunday shirt like i am. She would rescue me from my life. She would make everything better. Maybe she would be rich or have a rich family and was able to give me ( Read more... )

i am so bored right now. Minerva is on my lap so i can't get up of course. Nothing exciting happened in outpatient today. i am dreading the day they bring up what i owe. i had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. She wants me to see a therapist. Corri is going to try and get the number to her therapist. The therapist at Fair Oaks Psych. meets ( Read more... )

Finally out of work and showered. It was such a long day and the dogs were irritating as hell. Corri started crying when she dropped me off but would not say why ( Read more... )

man i have been cutting myself like i have been addicted to cigs

i need to get my sweaty back from corri before she gets in anymore cig smoke/pot smoke filled cars and stinks it up. not that she would be so inconciderate or disrespectful to my stuff/feelings... i just better be safe

sarcasm. thje food of the gods \m/

I have been trying to figure out why razors just do't cut me like they used to. Are they made differently now? Or do I just not do it right anymore. I remember I used to be able to cut myself so nicely... now I am lucky if I get a scratch. The edge just seems to glide over my skin now... literally ( Read more... )

School. I don't know what is going on. Had my medication halted? Has it suddenly decided to say "nope, no disk". I am back to falling asleep in English class. I can't be doing that AGAIN! I am so fucked. Woodworking was awesome. It is amusing to watch this certain group, and yes, ( The FQ )